[He smiles thinly, wiping the tears from his eyes in disgust. He's thankful, even if it's really not his right to mourn. You don't mourn your enemy, even when you're in love with her.]
Lethal. Death was her gift. She made it with her hands every night she was alive, truly alive to her purpose. But unlike every other girl who wore that burden before her, she was... kind. She had loved ones, something the others didn't. They all fought alone, see, but this girl built her own family, and she fought tooth and bloody nail to defend it at every turn.
She made me promise to protect that family. There were about three of 'em I could stand but I need to fulfill that. I promised her and I couldn't cut it before hand so I need to keep it after she's gone.
She wouldn't like anything I'd describe her as. She hated me, most of the time, and a part of me hated her too. Hated the power she had over me, which I suppose that's all love is, isn't it?
...But I'm what's here.
[Erastis, for his part, simply yowls mournfully, but accepts the comfort.]
[Is that love? She's not certain. It seems like nothing she's experienced before--she can't imagine what it's like for Spike. But she felt his grief in that memory, and that was real.
Taf is just huddled up next to Erastis, a tiny foot-long cat next to Spike's lynx. But he's doing what he can to help too.]
I see. She found a way to stay true to herself throughout everything.
[That, she can understand.]
Even at the end, she stayed true to herself, rather than choosing one bad ending over another.
[His own experiences are so deeply rooted in the worst biases, he really wouldn't know. He understands feelings, but he's never really understood how deeply skewed his perception is.
Maybe one day he'll learn.]
Yeah, you'd have liked her. Tough as nails and stubborn to a fault, just like you.
[Bit taller, though. Alisaie ultimately reminds him more of Dawn. Buffy's... different, like she's got the hunger and the bloodlust of a predatory animal but adamantly refuses to reduce herself to being one.]
Reckon some of the others would disagree with you on this not being a bad ending, though. [He smiles thinly.] But I don't think Buffy would.
Yes, well-- [gross what is this feelings business get it away from her] --in a normal situation I would say that such a noble sacrifice was quite uncalled for, but...
[Her voice softens again.] I can understand why she made the choice she did.
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[He smiles thinly, wiping the tears from his eyes in disgust. He's thankful, even if it's really not his right to mourn. You don't mourn your enemy, even when you're in love with her.]
Lethal. Death was her gift. She made it with her hands every night she was alive, truly alive to her purpose. But unlike every other girl who wore that burden before her, she was... kind. She had loved ones, something the others didn't. They all fought alone, see, but this girl built her own family, and she fought tooth and bloody nail to defend it at every turn.
She made me promise to protect that family. There were about three of 'em I could stand but I need to fulfill that. I promised her and I couldn't cut it before hand so I need to keep it after she's gone.
She wouldn't like anything I'd describe her as. She hated me, most of the time, and a part of me hated her too. Hated the power she had over me, which I suppose that's all love is, isn't it?
...But I'm what's here.
[Erastis, for his part, simply yowls mournfully, but accepts the comfort.]
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Taf is just huddled up next to Erastis, a tiny foot-long cat next to Spike's lynx. But he's doing what he can to help too.]
I see. She found a way to stay true to herself throughout everything.
[That, she can understand.]
Even at the end, she stayed true to herself, rather than choosing one bad ending over another.
I can see why you cared for her.
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Maybe one day he'll learn.]
Yeah, you'd have liked her. Tough as nails and stubborn to a fault, just like you.
[Bit taller, though. Alisaie ultimately reminds him more of Dawn. Buffy's... different, like she's got the hunger and the bloodlust of a predatory animal but adamantly refuses to reduce herself to being one.]
Reckon some of the others would disagree with you on this not being a bad ending, though. [He smiles thinly.] But I don't think Buffy would.
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[Her voice softens again.] I can understand why she made the choice she did.