[His smile wavers just a bit, and he takes another sip. He looks down at her, and his expression's got a bit of a softer tilt to it. Oh boy, time for trauma.]
...Faith got me through it. That's the word the devil used. Faith and loyalty to the people I held dear. That includes you, love. [Affectionate nudge.]
The domain was "Abandonment" I think. Don't really want to talk about what it was specifically, but that's how I found my way out, reminding myself that no matter what I have or don't have, it's never about me.
[He's so lucky she can't see his smile waver. But she'll smile back at him, returning the nudge.]
There will always be those who care about you, Spike. You simply need to find the people who will give you their faith and loyalty in return.
[Yes, she absolutely means her and she's not even being tsun about it. Fight her. But after a minute she'll take a sip of her wine, demeanor shifting slightly.]
Much and more happened while you were gone, however. I scarce know where to begin.
[But she'll start with the gossip, because this is Spike and she knows he enjoys that.]
[Thank god for Alisaie's blindness.... He smiles in response to what she says. It's... nice to hear. It's not what's important to him, whether it's returned, because he found the way to put into words that when he cares about someone it doesn't have to be about him needing something from them, because then he'll just take and take and take until there's nothing left.
Alisaie's equal parts kind and fierce, clever and brave, and that's why Spike cares for her. And it's because of that that he knows she won't throw him to the wolves too. Even if she could.]
Oh yeah? What specifically? We floated a couple theories if you'll remember.
[And to her, the returning is important, even if it isn't to him. He doesn't deserve to be taken advantage of, to have his trust and his loyalty used to drive him toward destinations yet unknown. He deserves the chance to make his own decisions about what matters now and what he'll do to protect that. Even having seen so much cruelty in her own world and here, she believes that.]
This stays between the two of us, of course, but... Susato was indeed the culprit behind Rex's death. I know not whether she had an accomplice, but that she killed him is without question.
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I meant your personal one, though if you wish not to speak of it I'll understand.
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...Faith got me through it. That's the word the devil used. Faith and loyalty to the people I held dear. That includes you, love. [Affectionate nudge.]
The domain was "Abandonment" I think. Don't really want to talk about what it was specifically, but that's how I found my way out, reminding myself that no matter what I have or don't have, it's never about me.
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There will always be those who care about you, Spike. You simply need to find the people who will give you their faith and loyalty in return.
[Yes, she absolutely means her and she's not even being tsun about it. Fight her. But after a minute she'll take a sip of her wine, demeanor shifting slightly.]
Much and more happened while you were gone, however. I scarce know where to begin.
[But she'll start with the gossip, because this is Spike and she knows he enjoys that.]
We were correct in our suspicions about Susato.
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Alisaie's equal parts kind and fierce, clever and brave, and that's why Spike cares for her. And it's because of that that he knows she won't throw him to the wolves too. Even if she could.]
Oh yeah? What specifically? We floated a couple theories if you'll remember.
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This stays between the two of us, of course, but... Susato was indeed the culprit behind Rex's death. I know not whether she had an accomplice, but that she killed him is without question.