A lot of people say I'm unable to feel it too, based on an old outdated theory about how vampires work. I think everyone can feel it, at least to some extent. Even those that truly don't have any emotions in the way humans understand them, or those who can't feel it 'cuz they just don't go for that sort of thing, it's more... complicated and integral to how all living things work on an instinctual level.
I guess I've just always been a bit bad with emotions...among other things.
[ flat rubs the back of his neck, smiling wryly. ]
I mean, I'm not saying that I'm faking things! But for a while I did try really hard to act the way that people wanted me to. Even now, I know that I don't act in a way that's considered normal. It's a difference that used to be something that made me really uncomfortable...and it still kind of does, but thanks to lots of people, I think I've actually gotten better with it.
[Spike frowns, leaning forward and actually placing a hand on Flat's shoulder.]
Hey... if they treated you shit just 'cuz of you being yourself? They're not worth appeasing. People everywhere'll want you to act a certain way and conform to what they think of as normal and it'll just make you miserable to try and give that to them.
[Spike's morals are odd, for one. Murder and torture? Okay and dandy. Being shitty to people for not acting within their expectations of normality? Scum.] You wanna know what helped me? Killing everyone who ever laughed at me for that shit. You should give it a shot.
[ well if it’s odd morals, flat’s aren’t much better. he doesn’t shy back when spike says that, though he looks a little embarrassed. ]
Jeez, I don’t think that would work for me…but good that it worked for you. No one should ever think about making fun of you—you’re awesome the way you are.
[ he sounds honest about it, mulling over the words some more. ]
But I don’t see a reason for it for myself. I mean, I wouldn’t mind killing if it were just myself… but I’ve found people that actually care about me both here and at home that would be upset if I did something like that and I don’t want to upset them soooo… I’ve decided I wouldn’t do something like that.
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[He smiles. Look at you, Flat.]
Why'd you think you're unable to feel it?
A lot of people say I'm unable to feel it too, based on an old outdated theory about how vampires work. I think everyone can feel it, at least to some extent. Even those that truly don't have any emotions in the way humans understand them, or those who can't feel it 'cuz they just don't go for that sort of thing, it's more... complicated and integral to how all living things work on an instinctual level.
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[ flat rubs the back of his neck, smiling wryly. ]
I mean, I'm not saying that I'm faking things! But for a while I did try really hard to act the way that people wanted me to. Even now, I know that I don't act in a way that's considered normal. It's a difference that used to be something that made me really uncomfortable...and it still kind of does, but thanks to lots of people, I think I've actually gotten better with it.
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Hey... if they treated you shit just 'cuz of you being yourself? They're not worth appeasing. People everywhere'll want you to act a certain way and conform to what they think of as normal and it'll just make you miserable to try and give that to them.
[Spike's morals are odd, for one. Murder and torture? Okay and dandy. Being shitty to people for not acting within their expectations of normality? Scum.] You wanna know what helped me? Killing everyone who ever laughed at me for that shit. You should give it a shot.
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Jeez, I don’t think that would work for me…but good that it worked for you. No one should ever think about making fun of you—you’re awesome the way you are.
[ he sounds honest about it, mulling over the words some more. ]
But I don’t see a reason for it for myself. I mean, I wouldn’t mind killing if it were just myself… but I’ve found people that actually care about me both here and at home that would be upset if I did something like that and I don’t want to upset them soooo… I’ve decided I wouldn’t do something like that.